1. Waiting in the doctor's waiting room
2. Waiting in the hospital waiting room
3. Waiting for the test results
4. Waiting for recommendations re: what to do if the test results are positive
5. Waiting for the doctor to call you back
6. Waiting for the drainage tubes to be taken out
7. Waiting for the shower and hair-washing that you are not allowed to have until the drainage tubes come out
8. Waiting for the next scheduled pain pill
9. Waiting to be told what exercises to do for your arm
10. Waiting to be able to put clothes on over your head again
11. Waiting to be able to drive again
12. Waiting some more before looking at the wound that will soon be a scar. Merely a scar — a place where healing has taken place.
Such an honest, frank entry...I think you've captured the emotions many women experience accurately.
Posted by: Living Beyond Breast Cancer | Monday, February 08, 2010 at 01:48 PM
Hope this isn't inappropriate, but your post immediately put me in my of Dr. Seuss' Oh! The Places You'll Go. Here's to you, Jane:
You can get so confused that you’ll start in to race down long wiggled roads at a break-necking pace and grind on for miles across weirdish wild space, headed, I fear, toward a most useless place.
The Waiting Place…for people just waiting.
Waiting for a train to go or a bus to come, or a plane to go or the mail to come, or the rain to go or the phone to ring, or the snow to snow or waiting around for a Yes or No or waiting for their hair to grow. Everyone is just waiting.
Waiting for the fish to bite or waiting for wind to fly a kite or waiting around for Friday night or waiting, perhaps, for their Uncle Jake or a pot to boil, or a Better Break or a string of pearls, or a pair of pants or a wig with curls, or Another Chance. Everyone is just waiting.
No! That’s not for you!
Somehow you’ll escape all that waiting and staying. You’ll find the bright places where Boom Bands are playing. With banner flip-flapping, once more you’ll ride high! Ready for anything under the sky. Ready because you’re that kind of a guy! [ok, gal]
Posted by: Jennifer | Monday, February 08, 2010 at 08:58 AM
Waiting with you.
Posted by: linda | Tuesday, February 02, 2010 at 11:26 AM
You looked great yesterday.
Posted by: harlan lewps | Tuesday, February 02, 2010 at 10:22 AM
Scars are also a sign of life, triumph over injury, living life with all that comes our way. May you heal well and strong!
Posted by: Jeff Kennedy | Tuesday, February 02, 2010 at 07:30 AM
I like your definition of a scar. Thanks for updating us so faithfully.
Posted by: mary ann stein | Monday, February 01, 2010 at 03:48 PM